Not I, but Christ

I'm reading the book "The Calvary Road." I have to say that it is the biggest encouragement and rebuke I have had in a while. This book needs to be on your must read list, especially if you have never read it. The first chapter starts off talking about brokenness. In this fist chapter, Roy Hession states that in order for us to have a right relationship with Christ, our will must be broken. We must say, "Not I, but Christ." Christ cannot live in us and have Himself shown through us, until we get rid of our selfishness. There is so much more I could say on the other chapters, but this one part of this one chapter just grabbed my heart. If you truly think about it, we all are so selfish. We want things our way, even when our way isn't what is best or even right. I find this so often in my own life. My selfishness even reared its ugly head at a time when I should have been SO unselfish, and it actually cost me some great things. I have let selfishness into my life too much and too often. Yet, it's one of the hardest things to really get rid of in your life. We're humans. We'll always want things our way. But until we allow God to break us, and we do our part as well, this selfishness will come many more times. No, I don't think we'll ever be able to get rid of our selfishness, at least until we get to Heaven. But, once we allow God to truly break us, and let HIM have control of it all, we won't be able to completely used by Him. Brokenness. Seems easy. But it's not. We try to live the Christian life by ourselves. Without God. Yet it is impossible to truly serve God and live this life without Him. Roy Hession talks of Christ being so broken to do what His Father had called Him to do. In Psalm 22 verse 6, The Bible tells us that Christ said, "I am a worm, and no man." Roy Hession goes on to talk of Christ becoming as a worm. When you think about it, worms are a picture of total brokenness. You can squash them and they don't fight back. You can do what you want with it and they don't have any resistance. We should be just like that. Allowing God to do what He wants with us, without any resistance. I don't know about you, but that is certainly something hard to ask of someone. I want these certain things done my way...but a few other things, God can do His way. But, we have to be completely surrendered and broken for God to do whatever He wants with all of us. I'm hoping to daily make my prayer that it will be not I, but Christ in everything.