Perfect In God's Will

I'm actually posting again this week! Isn't that cool?! Ok, so I'm probably the only one that thinks it's cool. But, anyway, I actually don't have much to say tonight. Well, I guess I could put a lot down, but I'll refrain. I'm to the point where I'm in need of a break. Thanksgiving break is NOT coming fast enough! I can't wait to be home with my parents and my sister (my best friend EVER!!!) just hanging out and having fun. It'll be so nice. It's coming. Slowly but surely...it's coming. I got my midterm grades yesterday. Not too bad. I've got some work to do! Only 1 C and the rest B's. So, I've got some work to do before the real grades come out.

Have you ever just been so completely in awe of God? I was totally in awe of Him yesterday and today. It's Missions Conference this week and we have some different missionaries presenting their work. I'm not sure where God's calling me or what He'll call me to do in the future, but to see these people get up and have such a heart for serving God in these countries, just puts me in awe of Him. He's has called those people that He knows will best be used in these countries. And then, He qualifies them. Like that saying, "God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called." And here I am, thinking of how inadequate I am to be called and used of God, yet He can and will still use me if I'm serving Him and let Him guide me. Amazing. He knows exactly the path that I will walk in the future (for however long He keeps me here) and it's a perfect plan. No, it won't always be easy, and yeah, I'm gonna want to question Him (and more times than not I WILL question Him) but yet, His way is perfect. God's really teaching me this right now. When I look at things in my life and wonder "Why?" He knows what He's doing. Things in my life are not perfect...but they're going perfectly according to God's will. Isn't that an amazing thought? It's so easy to get discouraged and down and not want to get up when you fall. But God's grace is so amazing and faithful. God is amazing. I can't comprehend it...I can't even begin to understand it. But, I'm so glad He's faithful, especially when I'm not!

How wide is Your love
That You would stretch Your arms
And go around the world
And why for me would a Savior's cry be heard

I don't know
Why You went where I was meant to go
I don't know
Why You love me so

Those were my nails
That was my crown
That pierced Your hands and Your brow
Those were my thorns
Those were my scorns
Those were my tears that fell down
And just as You said it would be
You did it all for me
And after You counted the cost
You took my shame, my blame
On my cross

How deep is Your grace
That you could see my need
And chose to take my place
And then for me, these words I'd hear You say

Father no
Forgive them for they know not what they do
I will go
Because I love them so

I love the words to this song. It seriously makes me cry when I read these words and think of the price Christ paid for me. That was my cross that He died on. I deserve it...not Him. Yet He loves me (and you!) so much, He gave His life. Amazing. That's all I can say. God is Amazing.